2/14/09

Having A Tequila Threesome...

At a lovely little party I had what was for me a far to large quantity of alcohol, i know i said i was going to lay off the liquor for a while but i really picked a bad time to try that idea out, i know adding a depressant to an already depressing situation seems like it will only make things worse but i find a well placed shot or six can take my mind off things for a minute of peace....



I just was looking for my minute of peace, but what i found was bliss it was such a nice night drinking and playing games getting to be my flirty over the top usual fun loving self but i was just a shade or three past buzz, there were several women at the party lovely bi and bi curious women in a house in lingerie with a drunken me, which could spell disaster especially when you factor in that it had been three weeks since i had gotten to touch any pussy but my own, i was jonesing and hard for a little tasty lick or two...



oh I'm pretty sure i was at one point sitting upside down on the couch to get the blood in my head while i rubbed one off watching good porn upside down, needless to say i hit my happy place then pulled the cute blond into the bedroom so i could ravish her, we started out one on one until a friend joined us, i don't want to get into nasty steamy juicy dirty details here but i do want to say Holy Shit and Thank You... wow i had so much fun so thank you everyone who was there, for making my night wonderful and exactly what i needed, hope i didn't do anything to ruin your night while i was blasted and if my attention was unwanted or offensive to anyone sorry to have bothered you, but all that aside, i think we all had fun i know i had a wonderful time and like i said it was just what the Dr ordered for me...

Fresh Faces

I love new dates, meeting potential playmates and for me everybody holds a little potential at least at first, still it has been over a month since i have done the first date with a couple, sitting around sipping coffee and speaking frankly with grown ups, two of my favorite past times, plus it is exciting to meet new friends from here people who i can sit and picture naked most times, either way i know enough to have some very ocuping mental images while we sit and talk...



i picture myself on my knees face down ears deep in that lovely dripping pussy, pressing her buttons with my tounge, feeling her thighs wrap around my head shaking with her pleasure, i imagine him behind me standing with my ass pumped up in the air and i can almost feel him fucking me deep and doggy with that thick cock i caught a glipse of, i would rock my tight pussy around him and ride his cock untill i was creaming all over his balls...



So i sit and nurse my white chocolate mohca, fantasy running wild in my mind, what i cant wait to do to this unsuspecting couple, oh i do hope i can show them a wonderful time....

2/12/09

Dear Daddy...

I just felt inspired to write this little love letter just for you, God i miss you, so i was sitting up awake at 5:30 am. so tired i cant go to sleep and i put on my soothing music and I'm listening to these songs i have heard a hundred times and you have made real and personal to me, it says how i really feel about what i have found with you...

so once again in a style i often make fun of i will quote a song, only because it says what i mean so much better then i could, this isn't the whole song just the parts i cant stop playing while i think about you, and miss you, and wish i could just hold you,

Thank you for making music mean more to then ever before, Thank you for being my valentine

Know that you are loved by me for so many reasons, these songs are once again from India.Arie some how i cant get enough of her when I'm upset or need to be soothed,

The Truth -India.Arie

Let me tell you why I love him (besides amazing kinky sex)
Cause he is the truth (And he tells the truth)
Said he is so real And I love the way that he makes me feel (Like i deserve to be loved by someone as wonderful as him)
And if I am a reflection of him then I must be fly because His light it shines so bright I wouldn't lie (I mean this whole part while my life is falling into chaos, he is my light at the end of this tunnel)
I remember the very first day that I saw him I found myself immediately intrigued by him (Remember the orgy, but really it all started here first)
It's almost like I knew this man from another life Like back then maybe I was his husband maybe he was my wife (That must be why it feels so natural for me to fuck you)
And even,things I don't like about him are fine with me (They really are I even like how you breath while you sleep)
Cause it's not hard for me to understand him cause he's so much like me (We really are kindred spirits)
And it's truly my pleasure to share his company (I do treasure every second of your time that I get)
And I know that it's God's gift to breathe The air he breathes (what i wouldn't give to be in the same room as you)
How can the same man that makes me so mad (Did you know you have yet to make me mad, I hadn't realized that)
If he ever left me I wouldn't even be sad no Cause there's a blessin' in every lesson And I'm glad that I knew him at all (Know that this is so true, what ever heartbreak this path may bring i am grateful to walk it with you for as long as you want me, and whatever time we have i will always cherish and love you in my heart)
I love the way he speaks (Especially when i need my little pep talks, you will never know how much they mean to me)
I love the way he thinks (Politics aside)
I love the way that he treats his mama (I never met your mother but I love the way that you treat your children and that counts for even more in my book)
I love that gap in between his teeth (Cause i like to flick my tongue across it and it is kinda cute)
I love him in every way that a woman can love a man (Every way that counts for anything at all)
From personal to universal but most of all It's unconditional (I mean this also I may someday stop liking you but I will never stop liking you)
You know what I'm talking about (maybe not but at least now you have a better idea)

OK now i know I'm rambling but i mean it so much and i want to send you one more song that says it all without explanation, except that it means so much each line so read it and think of what it means to me, you really are everything i asked for in my prayers, my lifes inspiration, you are indeed my beautiful surprise, and dosen't it seem like yesterday...

Beautiful Surprise -India.Arie

It's like yesterday didn't even know your name
Now today You're always on my mind
I never could have predicted that I'd feel this way
You are a beautiful surprise
Intoxicated every time I hear your voice
You've got me on a natural high
It's almost like I didn't even have a choice
You are a beautiful surprise
Whatever it is that you came to teach me
I am here to learn it cause
I believe that we are written in the stars
I don't know what the future hold
But I'm living in the moment
And I'm thankful for the man that you are, you are, you are
You are everything I ask for in my prayers
So I know my angels brought you to my life
Your energy is healing to my soul
You are a beautiful surprise
You are an inspiration to my life
You are the reason why I smile
You are a beautiful surprise

Daddy I am here to learn from you, to take anything you offer me in lessons, I do love the way that you make me feel and it means so much to me that you let me into your life, I treasure every second of time we have, I hope this post wasn't to crazy stalker chick for you, but it is almost valentines and i am so glad you will be mine... Thank you for helping me keep my sanity at time when i feel torn by the world, somehow fates aligned to put us into each others liefs at this point in time, and thank you just cant say enough to tell you how grateful i am to have found my safe harbor in this storm that my life has become and i am thankful for the man that you are my silver fox... Now everyone quit reading daddy's love note and go listen to these songs, she sings it so much better then i type it...

2/11/09

trival pursuits...

last night was just what i needed i had a shot of whiskey and waited for the party to start at a local little bar where TASA members where gonna go play trivia... Which was super fun it was 60's theme pop quiz with a side game of trivia on the tv... it was fun and a great crowd came it was nice to meet everyone and relax in good company, i had set up to meet a new friend at the bar well before... hes on the way to get me now... hope to finish this post before mid-night but it might be in the morning... its just what i needed to get my head straight...

2/10/09

loving drama

I have decided there are way to many people who love to play in the muck and drama both online and off. I don't understand it, sometimes i wonder if they know what they are doing or if it all subconscious. some kind of deep seeded need for turmoil.

I really do feel that chaos isn't good for the soul, when we are surrounded by chaos and turmoil then we will be filled with chaos and turmoil. doesn't a life filled with peace and comfort seem so much smarter. I see the people online that cant leave well enough alone, someone wrote me an email today that says it best opinions are like assholes everybody has one and most of them stink. when people don't get along online it is a huge world wide web cant they just both do their own thing.

I guess it just makes to much sense for some people because there are people who just love the attention and drama which they for the most part create for themselves and others. I had blocked out so much of my childhood memory's of my sister and now i am remembering why she is one of the many mis-guided souls who love to agitate and stir up drama. she plays people which makes it hard to help her and be around her all the time.

i understand now why my help was so needed, she doesn't have allot of people who want to help her right now and i think that is tied directly to the fact that she loves to create drama, and when you are sick and need help it is knowingly shitting in your own nest to keep trying to make the people who are here to help bad and aggravated

of course the net mirrors life in that people online also look for the drama, who love to stir the pot and cant leave well enough alone, by writing this i run the risk of being mistaken for one of those people my own self which isn't my intention really i just feel overwhelmed by the drama i am drowning in. I'm just looking for some understanding into people who manipulate and attack, who stir the pot and shit in their own nest. I needed to vent to let it out i am just about crazy already and my trip isn't half way done, yet...

so please, for your own sake don't be an agitator, online or in real life the chaos will age you make you ill and unhappy, if you cant make a situation better by adding your two sense then keep it to yourself, be kind, think before you speak or type, things are hard for everyone and getting harder aren't they so try to do no harm with your words and deeds, savor the peace you can find,

hope no one misunderstands the reason for this post i just needed to vent, its hard to face Florida, almost every bad thing that ever happened to me in life has happened to me in Florida and it fucks with me to be here... i love my sister and i love you guys sometimes i just need to let it out a little...

wishing you all peace love and happiness... i always have said that i would never post song lyrics, but i should know by now to never say never... when i get a little stressed music really helps and i have this one song from india.arie that i think just applies so well to this situation it sums up just how i feel about it and if you haven't heard her perform this song i strongly recommend searching for it online...
Get It Together

One shot to your heart without breaking your skin
No one has the power to hurt you like your kin
Kept it inside, didn't tell no one else
Didn't even wanna admit it to yourself
And now your chest burns and your back aches
From 15 years of holding the pain
And now you only have yourself to blame
If you continue to live this way


Get it together
You wanna heal your body
Get it together
You have to heal your heart
Whatsoever you sow you will reap
Get it together
You can fly fly

Dark future ahead of me
That's what they say
I'd be starving if I ate all the lies they fed
Cause I've been redeemed from your anguish and pain
A miracle child I'm floating on a cloud
Cause the words that come from your mouth
You're the first to hear
Speak words of beauty and you will be there
No matter what anybody says
What matters most is what you think of yourself

The choice is yours
No matter what it is
To choose life is to choose to forgive
You don't have to try
To hurt him and break his pride
Just shake that weight off
And you'll be ready to fly

One shot to your heart without breaking your skin
No one has the power to hurt you like your friends
Thought it would never change but as time moved on
That ugly duckling grew up to be a swan
And now your chest burns and your back aches
Because now the years are showing up on your face
But you'll never be happy
And you'll never be whole
Until you see the beauty in growing old

you can live or you can die
you know that life is a choice
you make you can give or you can take.

I love how she sooths me, thank you india.arie...

2/7/09

girls wanted

"my name is corydory and i want to recruit you" what it takes to be a gang bang girl or really just a good group player is a spirit of adventure, confidence and a willingness to try new things...

i want to be specific here so that we are all on the same page when i say a gang bang girl i mean the kind of girl who can walk into a room of six or eight men and want to fuck them all, this is only my opinion and i don't mean for this to apply to everyone who does a gang bang but i want to share with you why i love them why i feel like a good gang bang is worth the work to set up and totally worth the way to play, if i had the choice between a hot sexy night where one man gets me off ten times or a night where i get off ten men the ten men win every time with me, i love to make ten men cum and be happy...

i know it seems strange to say i do gang bangs because I'm a giver but that's the deal i love to please the masses i get off on getting the men off, but the side effect off that the reward for all my selflessness is that the men are there to get me off i have that pleasure of the men all working to make me cum, feeling every ones hands and eyes urging me to greater and greater pleasure it is a heady sensation to be the center of that much sexual energy at one time...

why i think most women would enjoy gang bang besides the new pleasure of being the center of every ones efforts to make you cum and feel good, besides how amazingly breathtakingly erotic it is to feel so many hands on your body stimulation on every point of your body there is the pleasure of knowing you are so sexy and ll of these men just want you so much they are lined up to take you...

i mean anyone considering a gang bang should have already done the little two male threesome at the least so you know how wonderful it is to suck some dick while you are getting fucked good and strong doggy style or be spread out with a man fucking your face and hot pussy both at once, some women even played with DP all i can say is when its good its very very good and when it ain't it ain't... either with or with out anal it is just basic science a women can wear out more then a handful of men at a time, with rotations and rest periods though a good gang bang can last long enough to leave everyone tired and sore...

another benefit to a gang bang is it is a safer way to meet more men, and make informed decisions about them, if you are looking for a good friend a man to pal around with you meet him at the bar and hang out if you are looking for a fuck buddy you set up a gang bang and make an informed decision before you invest a lot of time into a relationship, not to sound ruthless but then you can tell if it works sexual for you not...

but even if you are in a relationship with someone you love gang bangs are a great time they are designed to get the gang bang girls off and to make her feel like the center of every ones desire, which is a wonderful feeling it is a real confidence boost to be that desired...

i guess the long and short of what I'm saying is if this is something you are curious about you should try it, i for one am a huge fan i cant believe how easy and fun it feels to dive right in...

2/6/09

I needed a treat...

If you follow the blog you will know i have not had anything sexually satisfying since Sunday a week ago... i mean it has been forever or seems that way a whole week and a thousand miles and i needed a treat, selfish and greedy i just wanted to get my treat...



I am a unique little sex machine I run on pure cum and i was on empty. Last night i went and meet the locals at a little house party, it was fun with some promising results and today i got an email command to meet a man, i had made a joke the night before that i can cum when called and so i figured this counted as a call. besides i wanted my treat and i was hoping he had it for me...



I was early but i always am either early or late so i headed in and had a seat on the couch we talked for almost two hours and it was nice to chat but the whole time i was thinking, would you just shove your dick down my throat already, i need my treat i want to suck your dick already...



well finally i got my tits out and in his face he sure knows what to do to a nipple to make it feel right i almost came from his playing with my tits he just knew what to do, but i was trying to get my hands on his cock as the erection was growing under my fingers but i just couldn't get a grip, i refused to move my chest out of his face...



so he undid the button and the zipper and freed that nice thick cock for my hand to wrap around that cock i felt him stiffen to full hardness as i wrapped my fingers around him i licked the head of his cock so pleased to find a drop of his pearly cum waiting on the tip for my eager nimble tongue to lap up...



i had enough he made me ask for it out loud i told him to fuck my tits, please fuck my tits and as he was fucking my tits i craned my neck down and licked him as he thrust into my cleavage, i wanted to make him ask for it i wanted to make him beg me to suck his dick but i had gone so long without cock i couldn't wait i dived down on him, as deep as i could i gave him that great head i can only give to just the right size dick, big enough to push into my throat as held my breath and try to swallow as long as i could taking those deep gasping breaths and swallow and suck...



it was fast but furious and he came down my throat just the way i love it, i am so glad to have my treat i love to swallow that hot juicy load at the end of a good blow job, what a wonderful way to kick off the fun in Florida for me...



i also got some great news about the local swingers club and hope to check one out soon...